// Boys to men - “On bended knee”//

I don’t know why, I just have this song on repeat tonight. It’s just so soothing. Too bad there isn’t a love in my life.. Nvm, there is. My job. -_____-

// Graduation come soooooner!//

I don’t feel as if I’m going to be missed or anything, plus I have like NO motivation to do any homework. I’m ready to leave high school. I want to meet new people, explore new horizons, and be around people who actually want to be around me. Turning 18 will make all the difference. To be able to stay out later, go into clubs, and actually be treated as an adult. I’m just tired of doing the old “song and dance”.

Like I’ve said before, I only have a couple friends. True friends. They’re all that I need. I’m just tired of pleasing people that don’t have the right intentions.

Maybe that’s why I’ve been just talking to my coworkers more. Because we’re all different, we’re all cool with eachother, and I actually don’t talk to them about work. We talk about other things other than work, we’re understanding about eachothers schedules, and I know they’re not going to take advantage of my job. It’s just different when I’m with them, a good kind of different.

Idk. What I want for a graduation present are flowers or pictures of memories through high school. I just want to be able to put hella flowers in my room. Wake up to them the next morning, that’ll be great.

*Sigh* 5 more days (:

// 5 more school days of senior year. RANT.//

I can’t wait to graduate. It doesn’t even feel like any underclassmen or anyone who isn’t a senior would miss me. So I’m most likely not going to stay in contact with a lot of people.

I feel like I’ve really gotten close to my coworkers. Especially, yesterday and today. My manager talked to me today for like half an hour saying how the customers say I’m thee most loved and their favorite person at Champs. She said a couple business representatives came in asking for my information because they were really interested in hiring me to work for them. She refused haha. We’re all starting to hangout too, my coworkers and I. They’re really cool. A different crowd of people, a second family. I always thought band was a family, but this year involved a lot of mixed feelings. I’m happier at work and with my coworkers than anything now.

A lot of people have changed, some can say that I have changed. I’ve just looked at everything in my life and realized that there’s a lot of people that could care less about me, who never make an effort to take the initiative and invite me to anything nor care enough to just say hi. It doesn’t matter now, and there’s no way you can fix things because there’s only 5 more days left.

A lot of people say “Youre always working so I never invite you” kind of excuse. If you tell me A head of Time
Or ask me to call In to hangout with you, I’ll do It if you’re sincere. I’m tired of people asking me to hook them
Up with a job or a fucking discount. If I buy you something from Champs, it’s only if I offer or if it’s a gift. Those options are only given to friends who mean something to me and have been there for me.

I do have a couple friends that are sincere. Genuinely true friends. A friend I don’t see or talk to every day, but I know we’ll always be friends and can always hangout. I appreciate them so much, there’s only a couple, but that’s all I need.

I’m turning 18 July 10th. Coworkers and I are going clubbing and having dinner one night and I have something in mind with friends for another night.. Or two.. It actually might be an overnight thing at a different.. Place (: SO I’m excited.

On with the next chapter of my life (: